Narcissism – What It Feels Like To Be In A Relationship

 

I have vacillated back and forth on what to share about what it’s like to be in a relationship with a narcissist. I have shared a lot on my relational experiences (on my website) that encompass what it was like for me to be in such a relationship. It down right blows to be in this type of relationship. It’s dark, lonely, anxiety ridden, unsafe, confusing, painful and sometimes physically painful. It’s difficult to confide in friends or family because just like you, they may not possess the tools to hold space and bear witness to what you are going through. It isn’t easy to “just leave.” It’s quite complicated and that’s without adding in financial components, housing, children or other enmeshments. 

If any of what I have been sharing, resonates, I highly recommend finding a therapist or psychotherapist, who specializes or understands NPD, to speak with. I wish I would’ve had these tools and knowledge to have a better direction to go then just through it, over and over again. 

All love. 

Ashley

By heartfarter

Ashley Kelly-Holden is an personal essay writer. Her notably published essay, "You Want Me To Do What?" was the launching point for her voice. Her essays highlight her deep and hilarious observations on her relationships and the lessons she has "learned" from them. Her hopes in writing are to "get it all out" and to "help others on her path feel less alone." Ashley lives in Los Angeles with her husband and daughter. Instagram: @heartfarter